zili and rachel be honoured. im writing something for you all leh.
and E before you start all the blabbering about how hard life is. read this first.
theres this girl who was really fucked up.
when she was in primary school. no one really liked her. she had little true friends.
those true friends are really saints. they understand why she behaved like this (the reason was extremely violent family)
she often cried in school (in fact she crys easily)
people thinks that shes just attention seeking
sometimes she cant take the stress. she hides and cry. sometimes she wake up from horrible nightmares that leaves fresh wet tears on her cheeks.
sometimes her friends ask her why are there so much scars on the legs.
those belt whipped marks and those cuts.
she couldnt say much,she didnt dare,
when she entered secondary school
her dad lost his job. and his temper got bad to worst. there are financial problem too.
things didnt got better. the beating got from bad to worst too.
sometimes she had to secretly take part time jobs for extra pocket money because theres not enough.not enough for phone bills not enough for necessities (yes. pay her own bill. phone bills)
her sec 1 and 2 friends dislike her. (she didnt know whats wrong)
the stress she got at home and from school is accumulating. one day she turns to crime.
she thinks that going against everything might be a way.
she stole. because there is a sense of satisfaction and achievement she could get. (her studies were bad)
she fought. she was happy when she fight because she can hit all she wants.
untill one day. she got caught.
but thats good. someone stopped her and professional counselling changed her.
it changed her dad slightly but not totally (until now too)
until her sec 3 friends dislike her.
they decided to teach her a lesson.
she didnt had a single friend in class. SERIOUSLY NONE. THOSE TWO MEAN GIRLS TOLD EVERYONE TO IGNORE HER.
EH! now i think about really childish leh. ESP the one who like lemon tea! walao.
*skips all the drama*
it continued for 3-4 months before she totally changed.
her maths went from a 7/100 to 51/100 (eh its great achievements le hor!)
but because she played wayy to much during the first second midyear exams. her results totally sucked at the end.
AND THEN TADA NA.
(nice try already la)
so E before you say how hard life is. what you went through i went through too.
DONT COMPARE!
im not saying in the most kelian girl. or i had gone through the worst hardships.
i know there are some people out there who have 10x worst than what i had.
but all the pulling hair. belt whipping. bloody bash.crooked bloody nose.chipped off tooth.
i had them too.
DONT YOU BLOODY COMPARE. your dad cant hit you because he is ill. MUM'S STRENGTH DOESNT HURT.
wait till you get hit by a guy and hit by a girl.
you know the fucking difference then.
BACK TO REPLY TO WHAT YOU SAY:
i gave you face by not writing you name the previous post leh.
oh i didnt refer to you not telling me about problems your boyfriend problems or your family problems
i was refering to... TELL US THE DAMN THING YOURE NOT HAPPY WITH US.SO WE COULD CHANGE?!
what we want to hear are things like...
ameline today you did this and i dont like it. i hope that you wont do it anymore^^
zili today what you said sounded mean. i was hurt you know.
blah blah.
if you cant face us. theres always something called SMS.
sms are created for that purposes.
what a friend you are? would you just watch us rot all we could and then here comes the most interesting part: EH YOU ALL ARE SO MEAN. YOU DID THIS AND THAT TO ME.I BLOODY DONT LIKE IT.
the point i was refering to the last post was....
WE ALL HAVE FAMILY PROBLEMS TOOO. BUT WE STILL ATTEND SCH.
FAMILY PROBLEMS ARE NOT AN EXCUSE FOR YOU TO SKIP SCHOOL
IF SINGAPORE ALLOWS PEOPLE TO HAVE FAMILY PROBLEMS TO STAY AT HOME. EVERYONE WILL BECAUSE EVERYONE HAS!
dang. do you need every single details to be poured out so as to make you understand better?
or you still catch no balls? OH NEVERMINDS
secondly. (see im nice enough to separate out the things for you girl!)
ok secondly.
what! im rude? hahaha. i am! in the correct way.
YOU MEAN PEOPLE WHO ARE SICK AND HAVE FEVER AND FLU (a symtom of h1n1) SHOULD ATTEND SCH?
oh~they should attend sch and just nice if they have h1n1 they could pass the damn fucking virus to everyone so that everyone in singapore can die.
and all singaporeans can be extinct and then you can celebrate national by yourself huh?!
sorry lor. no fireworks for you hor!
NO! teacher did mention that people who have fever are to be sent home.
oh i forgot. you skipped alot of days in school.
I SHALL EDUCATE YOU ON THAT. TEACHER DID SAY PEOPLE WHO HAVE FLU OR FEVER ARE NOT SUPPOSE TO ATTEND SCHOOL
BE CONSIDERATE! (never learn that in kindergarden meh?)
and since you like to give examples.
i shall give you back some.
1. I THINK YOURE DAMN PARANOID AND THERE HAVE BEEN CASES TO PROVE SO...
i know youve been disliking N since like dunno when la.
(i agree its normal not to like some people)
and then you came back telling me things like...
'walao eh. just now hor that n and they all hor keep on jiang jiang jiang leh.i think they jiang about we all lor'
you like to drag ppl into the same boat as you because you didnt want to handle the situation alone.
tada.
AIYA FUCK LA. ALL YOU KNOW IS THAT PEOPLE ARE ALL WRONG OTHER THAN YOURSELF.ZILI IS WRONG.IM WRONG. WE ARE ALL WRONG BECAUSE WE DONT UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL.
WE ARE ALL WRONG BECAUSE WE DIDNT KNOW THAT IT HURTS AND MADE FUN OF YOU.
WE ARE ALL WRONG BECAUSE YOU DIDNT TELL US ANYTHING AND WE ARE SUPPOSE TO BE SOME GODS AND READ PEOPLES MIND
WE ARE ALL WRONG BECAUSE WE ARE MEAN WHEN WE ARE SUPPOSE TO BE ANGELS AND SAINTS.
RIGHT!
(yeah go ahead WE ARE ALL FUCKING WRONG)
when people asked us like:
eh ameline why you make friend with that girl huh? (refering to you) she very step one ahlian sia. kanasai!
we told them youre ok. and your just happen to seems like one.
when people say eeee eeee eeee. she so fuck up sia.
i tell them that you actually ok.
when people say youre a totally failure in life.
we told them the are about the same too.
I WONDERED WHY DID WE SHIELD YOU FROM ALL THE NASTY COMMENTS.
AND WE WONDER WHAT DID YOU DO TO BACKSTAB US.
we choose to tell you certain things and not all because we know that some hurt. but we didnt know that there are still minor leaks that we say out hurt too.
we did our best to filter.
but you didnt do our part to block.
NOW I WONDERED WHY DID WE DID THAT FOR YOU!
you choose to learn friendship lessons the hard way.
like what i did. (DONT WORRY IT HURTS LIKE FUCK. BUT IN THE BOTTOMLINE ITS GOOD FOR YOU LA)
and on a happier note. i still refuse to write your name. because people wont know who im refering too. because..we havent totally gave up on a friend.
a lost one still in search.
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I'm Ameline, 17 :) I'm a noob living on Pluto and studying for my O'level this year, very very busy.