firstly,
i dont think you even thought about it.
im sad when someone who was once a BIG PART of my life turned into someone whom i can just walk pass without looking....
or perhaps just a cold smile or greeting.
it was from an I KNOW YOU person...
to an I KNEW YOU person..
i really hate it.
im jealous,upset.
i dont like it at all.
i feel like crying because im losing something.
i cried last night because i felt insecured.
i told rachel about it.......and its true,theres nothing i can do.
i think your friends dont like me hanging out with them.
i think you prefer them to us.
i think im the alien amoung you guys.
i think i've shifted down many places from the top fews in your heart.
i felt it. and i think you know it best yourself.
its cold.
or so you may say that we should stop analyzing the past,
stop planning the future, stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel,
and stop deciding in our mind what we want to feel,
just go with the flow because....WHAT EVER HAPPENS...HAPPENS...for a reason,
but.......
why do they come first than us?
when we are the ones who share the same interest as you.
when we are the ones who shared the darkest secrets with each other first?
who had the most dramatic fights and became besties at last.
who are the one that changed and inspired each other the most.
who fought hand in hand and always defended each other no matter who the opponent was?
who gossiped about the meaniest things....and were labelled childish but didnt mind.
who were the ones who stood by each other no matter at high or low points in lives.
its us... you, her and me.
i know it. she knows it, you know it.
no one except for us know it.
its an our thing.
but now. its heartbreaking to watch each other drifing away.
its just...heartbreaking and...nothing else.
i will always remember you , my friend.
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I'm Ameline, 17 :) I'm a noob living on Pluto and studying for my O'level this year, very very busy.